Hot mess.

Just got home from the doctor's. (About an hour ago.)

Well, we had lunch and rested for a while pa. Because its so damn hot. The heat is so deadly. Even our dogs feel it. They've been howling and barking. They just stopped. Lola gave them water. I think now they're a bit satisfied and refreshed.

Heat stroke could be possible at the moment. You can see the place turning orange in your eyes. :| And you will literally feel the heat burning your skin when you're under the sun.

Anyway, we were at the doctor's today... And guess what. Everything just got screwed up. We lost track of everything now, because the doctor told me the wrong thing the last time we were there. BV. And I thought I was nearing pleasure once again. But I'm not, so you'll probably read tons more of my rants here, as I go on with my boring life being captivated here at home. :| I dont know if its normal to be as disappointed as I am, or maybe I just expected too much. I got too excited about being back on track with how my life was, and now that the doctor said I got much more to wait for, I'm back on being a bum. I hate staying home with nothing to do but go online all the time. When you're an active person, yeah, you'll dream about being home all the time too. But when it happens, trust me. You'll feel stupid for wanting it to happen.

Well, I guess Ima be stuck here for another month. O_O I hope not. I'm finding more productive stuff to do. I'm thinking of working on my sketching again, but I have nowhere to do them, so that's crossed off my list for now. I already sorted out old clothes a week ago, so.. Again, crossed off. What else? I'm bored with photo manipulation and doodling on Illustrator :| Any suggestions?? :| I wanted a productive summer. But so far, nothing productive has been going on. I've been sleeping all the time. Which, I guess is causing my weight gains. :( I wanna lose weight soon. SOOOOOON. Who wants to work out? Haha! AS IFFF. I think if I start working out, about after an hour, I will be dead tired, and will never want to repeat. Lol.

Summer 2010 is just so boring. I have unfinished doodles. (Pen&Paper.) Im not in the mood to continue them. I WANT TO LIE DOWN ON A WATER BED FILLED WITH ICE COLD WATER. Please? :( Im sweating like a pig. I need to take a shower. ~

http://www.amfff.tumblr.com

Lol. My Tumblr site.

My sister just made her own Tumblelog. HAHA. I laughed. She's only 9. She does mostly everything I do. Thats why she created her own Tumblr, I guess. Hahahah.

<-- Yanna's puppy dog.

And now Im customizing her page there. ~

Mojos.

We just finished dinner. We had Shakey's. Pizza and Mojos. :> (I've been craving for Mojos since Mico started working there. :|) But Mico didn't bring 'em. Tito Jay did. So, yeah. I just finished the dishes, and refilling the water containers, and now I'm tired as hell again. I get tired so quick. I hate it.

Anyway, tomorrow's my monthly check up. :| I am hoping for a positive feedback. :) And I am hoping to know about why I am experiencing such troubles these past few weeks. Hope it's not that bad, though. And I hope everything is going well.

And, yeah. Tomorrow will be our Mother's Day bonding. Lol =)) So, we'll be shopping, having a salon spree, and all. Well, after the check up. :D I wish Mico could come tomorrow. I really need him when I face my doctor. Hahaha. But we're also a bit nervous about the check up, since we think the doctor was counting wrong. Well, whatever it is, I want it to be as positive as possible.

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Im sick of all the campaign ads on TV, the banners, posters and streamers posted around, the trucks and vans with very loud speakers playing the political jingles over and over and over, and all the news about politics. Good thing elections are nearing. This Monday, to be exact. Im betting on Noynoy Aquino and Mar Roxas. I like their platforms, though I cant be voting yet. I will be, on the next elections. But for now, just like every year of my life that passed, I will be waiting on who wins and who loses, what issues will come up, and how and if they will be able to do what they promised during campaigns. Im pretty sure Im not the only one tired of corruption. Everything is harder with corruption. Yeah. EVERYTHING. We need leaders who are true. Im just not sure if there are any. When they get their desired positions, they get blinded by the fame and money, and everyone becomes airheads, and forgets the people and their promises, and everything ends up in more global debts, more problems and more corruption.

I sound such an activist. Hahaha. Imma shower up and get resting. Toodles. ~

Nightmare.

Aryt, good morning. I havent slept so well last night. :| I felt sooo uneasy. But,eventually, I passed out. Its a good thing, I guess. But now, Im required not to go out anymore. :| Sucks, because I have something planned out for today. A lunch out with Mico. :( But now we have to postpone it, because of my condition. Until everything is okay, until I am better. BV, huh.

See my name up there? Cool, huh :D I did that on Photoshop a few moments ago :> Lol. My boredom often leads me to looking at online tutorials on how to do Photo Manipulations and Text Effects. I uploaded some of my photo manips on Facebook, although Im pretty sure they're a bit behind already, since I have posted lots of photos since I did the manipulations. Haha. Yeah, and I got tired of photos, so I tried text effects today for a change. :) This is the first thing I was able to make. And thank God, it was successful :> Text effects are often used for fansigns these days. I actually dont know what they get from the fansigns but, many people tend to make them.

Anyway. Im thinking of asking Mico to stay for lunch today, since I cant go out anymore :( So wrong timing. :'(

Today is Friday. Tomorrow's a Saturday :) Tomorrow will be our bonding day, with my Mom, since Mother's day will fall on a Sunday, and malls will be jampacked. I'm hoping it happens, that it wont get stopped by anything. I've been waiting for that day for more than a month now.

AAAANYWAY, I gotta go. Need to lie down again, I need rest. I am too stressed. ~

Even the best fall down sometimes.

10:08 pm on my clock.

I really need to sleep, but Im still up. Friggin insomnia :(

Still feeling sick, though. More updates later, or tomorrow. I'm so not in the mood.

Robo.to

Ro-bah-to.

I just created an account there. I have no idea how to use it. Lol.

Black out

Mico left about an hour ago. And the power just went back on. So unfortunate, huh. Hahaha. All the time he was here, the power was off. He had lunch with me and my sister, since we're the only ones home. And rested for a while, then he was off to work :)

Im trying out a new game on Facebook. Most of the people added to me are playing it. Ever heard of Pet Forest? Hahaha! Yeah, that game. :>

* Clicking on the application..... Waiting for it to load.... UGH. TERMINATE.

I had to choose between allow publishing without my permission and leaving the application. Since I cant post updates yet on FB, I chose to leave the app :( Too bad, I was so interested.

Anywayyy. I had fun eating lunch with Mico, I saw him in his uniform for the first time, yet. Hahaha. It looked good on him. He also gave me the money I needed for my medicines and all the physical exams I will be needing on Saturday.

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The weather yet again, is sizzling hot. :|

I dont know how Im gonna put up with this today. I wish for rain, and lots of it. For a long period of time, not for a few minutes only. Or, cold air.... Please? :( Or just make the sun stop shining for a while. That would be biggggg help.

Im afraid that there would be another blackout soon.... I'm charging all my gadgets. My cellphones, my iPod, the PSP and... Yeah no more. That's all. Haha. I might be sleeping the whole afternoon again. Since I was diagnosed for bed rest, I will. And because I have nothing better to do, because Mico will be at work 'til late tonight.... Yeah, Imma have nothing to do :'(

Uh-oh. Mom just called. She's on her way home, gotta get going with the chores before I snooze off. ~

Epic fail.

I actually just woke up. Yeah, I failed. I told myself I wont sleep but I failed :( I fell asleep, due to really bad stomachaches. And now I am upset.

Mico said he will be here around lunch time. Its already 11am. And I think he still hasnt woken up yet. I'm starting to worry :( Im not gonna be able to spend as much time as I expected.

Imma eat lunch. To slip the bad vibes off :(

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Okay, its 12:23 and he just sent me a text saying he's on his way. :) Kinda made my mood go up a notch. Hahaha. Imma watch 16 and Pregnant 2 on MTV this May 11. I havent finished the first one, but I have seen Teen Mom, though. :)

I'm watching Taylor Swift's MTV of Fearless. I dont like the concept, but I like the song. :) I think Imma download that later. :>

Im inlove, and I dont deny it. ~

A love doodle for my doodle love. :>

DONE ON AI, AS WELL.

We've been together 2 years and 2 months.

I'm so happy :D

I WANT PANCAKES.

I WANT PANCAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKES.

I did this on Adobe Illustrator. :)

Cool, huh.

The brown thing arent bacon.

ITS SYRUP, for cryin out loud. =))

Believe me, I slept.

I have been putting that line since I went online. Like, on twitter and tumblr, and I hope I can post it too, on FB. Lol. Well, its true. I slept. At around 2:30am, and woke up at 5:30. I dont know why my sleeping patterns are so damn fucked up, but they sure are. And now I cant get back to sleep anymore. This has been my problem for a week now, since I stopped drinking the antibiotics that my doctor prescribed. Or not. Hahahaha. I'm not suuuuure. But I know that this thing going on with my sleep isnt helping.. AT ALL :'( Only makes my days worse. I sleep at night, get uneasy and wake up first thing in the morning. Then I eat breakfast, then feel sleepy, and drowse off 'til noon. Bummer, huh. Imagine if you get to be in my place. You'd be so annoyed by yourself and you'd do anything to change that. Now, I'm trying to keep myself awake for the whole morning, even if I dont have anything productive to do, just to correct my sleeping habits.

So, things to do while I'm up.

• I'mma shower up early. Mico will be coming to visit this morning, prolly before he goes to work :) He promised me a slice of Goldilocks' egg pie. (Yippee!) I told him I wanted that since late last night, so he will bring me one :> Oh, btw. Today is our monthsary *month anniversary*, we turn 2years and 2months :D Feels so good to be in a stable relationship. I am actually very surprised by myself, though. I haven't been in a relationship this long ever. Haha. Longest was a year and a half. Then I broke it up, because I realized that I couldn't stand being with one person alone. Yeah, I loved being around other guys. But everything seemed to change when Mico and I started going out. I've been more loyal and faithful, and I was damn contented. He's no different than other guys, I know. They're all the same, but one thing that caught me was his determination and effort. :) He may not be the most handsome guy in the world, or in this case, among the people I know. He may not be the wealthiest, he may not be the tallest or the most talented one, but he sure knows how to make a girl feel special.... And that's what I love the most about him. :)
• Help Lola cook lunch, or do the cooking myself, I guess. Since I'll be having a guest over, I guess I shouldnt leave all the work to the people here. Even though I was prescribed for bed rest, I think I will pass out on being in bed all day today.
• Have lunch with Mico and my family... Well, I consider him as family so, rephrase. Have lunch with MY family :) I'm happy my family treats him well. Like he is a part of the fam bam too. :D We actually have fun mostly when he's around, since everybody gets up on their best, not to humiliate themselves in front of Mico. I still don't know why too. Hahaha.

OMG. My eyes are puffy and so is my nose. :| I've been yawning already, but no. I have to stay awake! O_O Even if it means I have to drown in coffee, I will. I WILL :'( I'm really getting tired of how my days are going. I dont even notice the days passing by because I've always been in bed, if not online, ASLEEP.

Well, Imma go check on breakfast now. Lola must be done cooking by now, so I can eat up and get energized again. BBL~

More.

This is my friend, Raisa.

She taught me how to use Adobe Illustrator, and I did a doodle for her. Hahahaha.

New Post.

I just finished fixing my blog here. :")

Im thinking about getting active here, like really active, and find friends over blogger. :D I just hope I get luck about that. Lol. I kinda want many followers, though :| I want people knowing about what I do, how my day went and such. :> Anyway. I'm browsing through random blogs right now, looking at who to follow and all. :D

Im getting pretty bored already, though. I havent had much to do since late January. :| I've been a bum. Resting, and eating and sleeping and all. Lol. Well, for real. I havent even been out on malls anymore. Before, I was like, seen everyday at any random mall. Literally. Now, I spend most of my time here in my room, and in front of the laptop. How fun, right. Not. :)) Would you believe that I have played almost every enjoyable application on Facebook already? :| Yeah, almost! That is how bored I really am. And I have watched like every show on local channels here. Even on international ones. I've seen almost every cartoon on Disney Channel and Nickelodeon. Hahaha. Pity me.

Oh, and I didnt get to finish my drawing today. :| I felt so uneasy, and I slept through the rain instead. Speaking of the rain, Im hoping it comes back, as fierce as it was this afternoon. We really need the cold breeze here, since we dont have an airconditioner around, and we rely on electric fans, yeah. The rain could be a big help.

*Hey, its Phineas and Ferb on Disney :>

This has been my favorite already, since there's nothing else to enjoy on TV. Lol. Not only that, I just get so amazed by how they manage to build what they build. They're kids, for crying out loud! Hahaha! From what I have seen here, they built a haunted house, a roller coaster, a beach, and those kinds of things. They get to do that while I, get stuck here at home doing nothing. (Yeah, still bitter about being home all the time.)

I am still watching Phineas and Ferb, to entertain myself and probably to pass time by, too. And I'm also playing Mall World on FB. Again. Hahahaaha! You cant blame me. If you were in my shoes, you'd get hella bored too. Hmm. Im craving for something sweet. Perhaps an Egg pie from Goldilocks :'( But its 11pm already, no Goldilocks stores can possibly be open.

I've been working on my Illustrator skills. (Lol, on skills. Haha) Well, I've been doing photos for reblogs on Tumblr. :> I just hope this will be successful. Haha!

Anyway. I think Im gonna rest for now. Night! ~

Doooodle.

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Rain, rain.

Its May 5th. And its raining. So hard. So hard that all the doors were left open, but when the rain started, all the doors started banging closed. Lol.

I feel like drawing today. I will! Hahaha.

I just discovered that my dad is here in the Philippines already. I dont know exactly when he got here, but he's here alright. With my older sister. So, yeah. More trouble. Yaaay!! --- NOT. I just got sooooo stressed out about them, that I havent slept straight yet. I slept around 2am last night and woke up at 5am this morning. Then I slept at 6am, and woke up at 11, now Its so cold. K. There's no connection. =)) But it is cold. The weather we were always asking for is heeeere! :D

Anyway. Im online now, and surfing Google Images. For my next subject. :) What will I draw next.... Im thinking of a landscape scene, like a park or a forest scene, with rain.. Since it is raining. But I dont know how to start yet. So, Im looking at photos, to come up with what I will draw. :>

I might be blogging again later, though. ~

I'll never be the same.

Last blog post for today, hahahaha ~

Im feeling uneasy again. I dont know why :| Ugggggh. I want to sleep already. But, Im still waiting for Mico.

So... What to write. :|
Im wasting my time playing Mall World on FB again. Lol. Hahahahaha. I earned about 13k there today. I wish I could earn money this fast in the real world. I'd be filthy rich in a week. Hahahahahaha! Honestly, I envy rich people. I've always fantasized being rich. Where I could spend all the money I want, whenever I want to, with whatever I want to. Unfortunately, not everyone of us are born lucky with money. But even if I dont come from a very financially healthy family, Im lucky because I belong to one that loves me :)

Change topic. Mico's shift should be ending by now.... @@

He still hasnt texted me. Oh, well.

This photo was taken our senior year in high school. Yeah, we were so sweet :") Everybody envied our relationship, because we dont fight, we dont break up, we dont curse on each other, and we dont cheat on each other. But trials come, they help us become better people. Like what the troubles we've been through gave us, STRENGTH, TRUST and FAITH with each other. :>

Iloveyou, Angel ko :*

Hell is gone and heaven's here.

I adore Robbie Williams. I love how he sings, and I love how he performs. He's just so dreamy. :")

Nothing new about today, though. Still boring. Still nothing happening. I chatted with Raisa a few hours ago on FB. She recommended an MMA institute in Quezon City, around Delta. They offer a 2-year course on Multimedia Application, but its a trimester course. But still, for two years? Why not! :) Anyway, I told my mom about it. She doesnt approve, since the fees are quite high. :| So, I guess I really need to work hard for my grades to be able to get in at UP Diliman, or else.... Im stuck with PUP Sta. Mesa. Although there's nothing wrong there, its also a State University, what I'm minding is the distance. PUP will take me hours just to get there and back. On the other hand, I'll be in UP for about less than an hour. Big difference. This really confuses me.

Oh, well. I didnt do anything today :| Because it didnt rain like I expected. :( I only draw when its cold. I feel comfortable.

We're having Chicken Adobo for dinner. Yummm~

Mommy brought me mashed potatoes. I guess I was just not in the mood to eat rice today :| Im still feeling so fatigued.

I feel so dead tired. Funny thing is, I didnt even move around today. I was in bed from when I woke up, til now. ><

Zoink.

"Don't hide your scars, they make you who you are."

- Frank Sinatra

Good noon. Lol. It's not that hot anymore. ;) I think it's gonna rain soon, well, Im hoping it would! :D I love the rain, not just because it keeps my surroundings cool, but because I get inspired to work on my sketching too... Which I really need to practice right now. :")

Anyway, guess my grandma's not in such a jolly mood today. She's been frowning at everyone. Y'know, negativity is contagious. I dont hang around them so much because Im afraid I might be like them. Lol.

Gaaah. I've been experiencing pain again. :'( I dont think I can take it anymore, Im so tired of all the pain and troubles I've been experiencing this past month. Even the lightest moves hurt me. :| Yeah, I am that sensitive. And last night, I was monitoring my quick bathroom trips again. And well, nothing new. The first few days I was experiencing this, I was so psyched. I wanted all the signs to come up. But now, I feel bored about it. I dont actually expect it anymore. I think I'll just wait and see until whenever God plans me to have it. :| But the pain really irritates me. It's still tolerable, though. I just want to get over with this, because I wanna get back on track with my life already. I want to enjoy the same things my friends are enjoying. I want to be able to go out every now and then without tiring so easily. I want freedom again. AGAINNNNN. But this time, I know I'll be more careful with everything, unlike how I managed with the last time. See where it got me. Phew.

~ Lunch is ready.

Nowhere in between

Dont mind my blog titles, most of the time, there's no relevance. :))

Mico just left. I spent the whole afternoon with him and I am just so happy :> We just finished tidying up the living room, where we stayed..... And ate. And played. And napped. And did most of the things we did today. Lol.

I feel so energized when Im with him, no matter what happens. Im lacking a few hours of sleep, but Im still hyped when we're together. I dont feel tired, I dont feel sleepy or anything. And one thing I noticed, when he comes to visit, we do nothing but eat. Hahahaha. Today, I asked him to bring me cookies. Which he did, and while I was eating the cookies, he was munching on some leftover ribs from today's lunch. After a few hours, I asked him to but Shawarma, which is a very veeeeeery popular snack here at our place. There's this Shawarma shack, that serves the BEST shawarma everrrr. Try asking people. :> Its called Tri-Mo Shawarma Co. Lol on the name, right. What a way to name a food chain. Very creative. :D Anyway, we ate shawarma. Then about 30 minutes after, Lola started to cook rice for dinner. We ate again. :| Such gluttons, yeah. In fact, I can still taste the shawarma when I burp. Hahahaha. We had ribs and spanish sardines for dinner. :) And I had some of Lola's veggies while Mico ate a sandwich with majestic ham. :> Now, would you still wonder why we grow fat?? After this, I guess not anymore. Haha!

We saw half of HSM3 on Disney Channel this afternoon. I remember seeing that movie in a movie house with him, 2 years ago :D Its where we came up of Kups. Yeah. HSM 3. Weird, right. =))

Anyway. I really had a blast today with him, though we did practically nothing.... Haha. I enjoyed his company. And I hope we see each other on Wednesday or Thursday :> We'll turn 2 years 2 months on Thursday :D And still counting. :>

Anyway, my neck hurts. And so does my back. Idk why. I gotta rest. Good night :')

Aie-Yeah-Yeah.

I'm done with lunch and I'm waiting for Mico to arrive. :) I'm online at Y!M and chatting with Patsy. I miss that girl. My sabaw mate at UST, my first college frieeeend! :D Anyway. Have you listened to Rihanna's song Hard?? She was shouting my name like, AIE YEAH YEAH! All the time =))

And because Im so bored, I am playing Mall World on Facebook again. Lol. The game kinda had me interested because of the cool clothes. So, now I have lots of distractions, since I cant update and post on FB. I have Blogger to update every now and then, Twitter and Tumblr. And Looklet, too. :) I've been spending countless hours on Looklet lately, haha! Probably why I wanted to try out for the Fashion Institute of the Philippines. But I guess that would be too expensive, and it will take a lot of hard work and concentration.... Which I dont really have. Hahaha.

I am sweaty, and smelly. I must take a bath now, Imma have a visitor anytime now. Lol.

Good morning, no sunshine.

The sun isnt shining so bright today, but its still hot as hell here :'(

Technically, it's noon already. But I just woke up. I overslept due to unbelievable trips to the bathroom last night. Hahaha. No, seriously. I have been getting up like every 6-10 minutes to go pee. :|

Anyway, I'm watching MTV with my sister. I can't believe the people they feature on shows there, like on Sweet 16, and TEEN CRIBS. Well, we're currently watching Teen Cribs. I envy them. :| They're living my dream. Having all the best things life could possibly allow you to have. I want to have a home a bit similar to that someday. Not exactly as huge and expensive as the ones they show on Teen Cribs, but something cheaper, but just as fun.

I want a swimming pool in the house, a room for all entertainment purposes, like a TV room or something, a room where I can go get relaxed, and a backyard or a front yard with a basketball court, or a basketball ring for my guys to have fun with. :)

OMG, THEY HAVE THEIR OWN POND :| Its like their own Grotto there :| Its unbelievable. They even have a place just to make smores. How cool. (I am currently drooling over their house.) The house is nice, but I've seen better. Not for real, of course. Just on TV too. Lol.

Well, its about lunch time. I think I'll be off for now. Be back later. With more thoughts, I guess. :DD Mico will be here, so I'm sure I will have a lot to put :>

Back and forth, if my heart was a compass you'd be North :>

It's 1am. I still got no message from Mico. Im starting to worry. No, but I know he's fine. We'll be seeing each other tomorrow, and I am so psyched about it. :>

(I've been peeing like... UGH. Haha.) Oh, I got a Noynoy Aquino baller. At last. Hahaha!

I'm planning on starting a 365 project, when Klaud comes. :) I don't think I will be able to do it if I start now, because of my condition and I want it to be about how my first 365 days with him will be. :D Im just so excited to have him, though I know it would be veeeeery hard work, I know I can do it and I know I want him NOW :)

I will do the 365 project on Tumblr, since Tumblr I think, is made for posting photos. :) I'll update soon. :>

Sunburn.

You see this guy right here? :)

I love him.

I like him.

I adore him.

I miss him.

I want him.

I need him.

I plan my life with him. <3

No words can really express how I am feeling for him, but Im sure he knows how I do. :> He is the only guy to ever be friends with my family. And I love him more because of that. :"> We've been together since 3rd year high school. We've been inseparable since. :) Of the 2 years we've spent together, Im sure we'll make it through anything and everything life throws us. :> He does everything for me, for us, for Klaud. Im proud to call him mine. And I am pretty confident that he's mine, and only MINE, just as I am his. :)

*Two years and counting, I am still inlove with you, the way I was when I met you <3

CUSTOM MADE.

Trying my creativity on HTML.... Customizing my blogger site.

And I'm thinking of watching Family Guy online until Mico gets home. :D

I'll never let this go.

Title? Nothing. It's what I'm listening to. :D

Let this go - Paramore

I cant sleep. Probably because I've had lots of sleep today, and because I am waiting for Mico :) Well, my mom couldn't sleep as well. She's up here beside me. Not beside me, beside me. But she's somewhat near me. So, I can say she's beside me. If she was literally beside me, I wouldnt be able to blog. =))

I'm currently customizing my page here.... I went to look at other bloggers here, and man was I intimidated. My site looked like trash compared to theirs. Lol. Maybe in time, my site would look better, too! :DD I was looking up tutorials on how to make GIF animations, I want one for my blog :> But I cant seem to find any, and I stuck to those sites where you simply upload and click OK, then the next thing you know, you have your GIF image already. ( Yeah, I give up easy. )

* Craving for McDonald's. Good thing Yanna and Tito Jay went out for a late snack. I asked them to buy me nuggets, I hope they didn't forget =P~

I know the feeling of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE already. Its when you care for someone even if you dont want to anymore. Like when you dont want to do favors for that someone, but you have no choice, because you want to help. It's exactly what I feel for Tito Jay. Everybody is annoyed by what he has become after his stroke, but he has no idea. He still thinks he's normal. Its like he's going through second childhood, that stage most old people go through. But he's a lot younger than those who usually experience this. He doesn't listen to anyone, he thinks he's always right, because he has money. I want to abandon him... Literally. Because of the stress he has been causing for me. But I cant. When I was in need before, he was there to help. But that doesnt mean that he shouldnt try to change, right? He should be adjusting too, just as we are. Having a half-disabled body is not an excuse for special treatment, all the more he should be helping himself. If he won't help himself, nobody will. I've been hearing complaints from everybody here. He is such a pain in the neck. But we cant let him go, because he doesnt know his limits and he cant control himself. If we leave him alone, I bet he'll perish in not more than a 3 months after. He cant be independent, but he is OVER DEPENDENT. He's about 35 years old, and yet he acts as if he is 7. Would you believe it. I feel like Im the only responsible adult here. Everybody wants pampering, everyone wants attention. HELLOOOOO. I am the teen here! Im the one still going through changes in my personality, my body, and my life. A little help??? They dont know how hard it is. :| Its like within a year, I went from being 16 to being 30. UGHHH.

* That feeels sooooo goood. :| I hate keeping things to myself. Specially when its about how bad I feel when my family treats me differently.

Numero Uno.

See, I just got started here on Blogger. I know this used to be called Blogspot. How come now it's blogger??? Weirrddd. @@

Anyway, I got tired of the other blogging site I discovered.... No thrill, LOL. I created this about a month ago, but I didn't quite like it at the moment, so I left it blank. Now, I'm planning to post everything here. :) I got other sites you can follow me at too. If you're interested, try following me there :DD I will edit my page later, and add links to my other sites, so you can connect easily. :D

So, it's 9pm. I had dinner about 2 hours ago, and now I'm feeling hungry again. (I just saw a photo of fries from somewhere, they looked sooo scrumptious.)

Its May 2nd.

It has been a week now, since I started planning on continuing my studies. I graduated from high school, last March 2009. I entered college at UST, took up Fine Arts, major in Advertising. UST didnt quite work for me. :| I had too many low grades, some were FAILED :( I stopped at the beginning of the 2nd semester and will probably start again, on this coming school year's 2nd semester.. For some private reasons. :) I have been searching for schools nearby that would allow October enrollees. I am planning to take up IT, because everybody said I could do better there. I dont mind stopping on the arts for a while, because what I need now is GOOD GRADES. Well, excellent grades. I've always wanted to go for UP. I asked a friend on how she transferred, and she said it was easy :) All it takes was practice. But Im not setting my mind for UP itself. I did that a year ago, and see where it got me? I only applied for UST and UP. I didnt pass UPCAT, I was in for UST, and I didnt work my papers out on UP then. I got stuck with UST, and I wasted about Php 100, 000.00. The fact that UST has the best Fine Arts education got me startled, and had me going nuts about entering there. I didnt realize how much money we were throwing out, not only for the tuition fee, but also for all the materials I needed and consumed, and oh. I didnt catch a dorm there, I commuted everyday. I spent like 100-200 pesos only for daily fare. So, yeah. Going back to UST is a big no no for me already :P Well, as I said, Im not setting my mind for UP itself. I looked for other schools too.. And settled for trying in at PUP, which is another state university on the same field, and Asia Pacific College, to take up Multimedia Arts. :) I know its a bit early for plans, but nothing said anything was wrong about having goals, right? :>

Well, I will be a bum until October. Yeah. Still a long long way to go before I study again. :| I actually miss school. And I feel so frustrated that I will not be able to enroll this coming June. I always loved the "first day" feeling. And that feeling you get, a few weeks before classes start, when you buy your books, notebooks, school supplies, uniforms, bags and shoes! I was always up for that. :D I feel so bad about this, but hey. Patience is a virtue. :) Wish me luck on my schooling! :DDD

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Now, let's talk about how my day went. :D

Last night, I was up until 1:30 AM. I do this all the time, because I wait for when Mico's shift is done. :) As a normal girlfriend would, I ask about his day, what happened at work, how was he, and of course, told him to take care of himself. :) I kinda feel bad though. I slept on him last night. Hahahaha! I wasnt feeling so pumped last night. I felt over fatigued, due to some unknown reasons until today. (Gaaah. I make it sound like a medical thing. Hahaha.) There. So I was supposed to drink my meds at 3AM. I asked my mom to come wake me up at 3, since she will be online that time, playing her game. She did wake me up, but I didnt get up :| Haha. I opened my eyes a bit and fell back to sleep the moment she left the room. At around 5:30AM, I suddenly had the urge to pee. So I woke up, and headed for the bathroom. Our bathroom has a little window just about 5 inches beside the shower, which leads to the kitchen. There, you get a full view of a calendar, and a clock. So, after I did my business there, I weakly shot a look at the clock, and I was suddenly feeling rushed, when I saw that it was past 5AM already. I went out to get my medicines and drank them with not letting anything stop me. My mom was making breakfast already, and she was just cooking bacon, eggs and hotdogs so that didnt take long. I waited a couple of minutes, then ate breakfast with my grandma and mom. Right after breakfast, I went to my bed and started hugging all my pillows. Again, I felt so fatigued :| I fell asleep around 8AM. But we were scheduled to fix our clothes today, so mommy had to wake me up again. We did what we needed to and had it done around 2PM. Yeahhh. We had late lunch. Then I fell asleep again. Woke up at around 5PM. I didn't catch Mico anymore. :( He was at work when I woke up. But it's okay. He'll be home soon, and I will be able to talk to him :D Yun. I made Spicy Shrimp Gambas today! (YUMMMM.) Yanna and Tito Jay are at SM, they saw Ironman 2. I wasnt really in the mood to watch a movie. I feel so tired.

Chat with me, Im online. :DD

Im speechless already. I cant think of anything anymore. Maybe later again :>