I'll never let this go.

Title? Nothing. It's what I'm listening to. :D

Let this go - Paramore

I cant sleep. Probably because I've had lots of sleep today, and because I am waiting for Mico :) Well, my mom couldn't sleep as well. She's up here beside me. Not beside me, beside me. But she's somewhat near me. So, I can say she's beside me. If she was literally beside me, I wouldnt be able to blog. =))

I'm currently customizing my page here.... I went to look at other bloggers here, and man was I intimidated. My site looked like trash compared to theirs. Lol. Maybe in time, my site would look better, too! :DD I was looking up tutorials on how to make GIF animations, I want one for my blog :> But I cant seem to find any, and I stuck to those sites where you simply upload and click OK, then the next thing you know, you have your GIF image already. ( Yeah, I give up easy. )

* Craving for McDonald's. Good thing Yanna and Tito Jay went out for a late snack. I asked them to buy me nuggets, I hope they didn't forget =P~

I know the feeling of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE already. Its when you care for someone even if you dont want to anymore. Like when you dont want to do favors for that someone, but you have no choice, because you want to help. It's exactly what I feel for Tito Jay. Everybody is annoyed by what he has become after his stroke, but he has no idea. He still thinks he's normal. Its like he's going through second childhood, that stage most old people go through. But he's a lot younger than those who usually experience this. He doesn't listen to anyone, he thinks he's always right, because he has money. I want to abandon him... Literally. Because of the stress he has been causing for me. But I cant. When I was in need before, he was there to help. But that doesnt mean that he shouldnt try to change, right? He should be adjusting too, just as we are. Having a half-disabled body is not an excuse for special treatment, all the more he should be helping himself. If he won't help himself, nobody will. I've been hearing complaints from everybody here. He is such a pain in the neck. But we cant let him go, because he doesnt know his limits and he cant control himself. If we leave him alone, I bet he'll perish in not more than a 3 months after. He cant be independent, but he is OVER DEPENDENT. He's about 35 years old, and yet he acts as if he is 7. Would you believe it. I feel like Im the only responsible adult here. Everybody wants pampering, everyone wants attention. HELLOOOOO. I am the teen here! Im the one still going through changes in my personality, my body, and my life. A little help??? They dont know how hard it is. :| Its like within a year, I went from being 16 to being 30. UGHHH.

* That feeels sooooo goood. :| I hate keeping things to myself. Specially when its about how bad I feel when my family treats me differently.