Here we go again.

Here I am again. Blogging about another not-so-exciting thing. My feelings usually bring me to blogging. Because I dont have anyone to tell them to. Not because I dont want to tell anyone, but because nobody will ever understand. I dont claim myself as an emo type of person (the usual emo people know.) Though I am full of emotions, its different. I'm not an emo poser. I'm not suicidal. I'm just so full of hatred at the moment. I'm not really used to having a retard around. I know its harsh to call someone a retard, but I dont care. He doesnt care about anything, so why bother caring about him.

FUCK I JUST DELETED A WHOLE PARAGRAPH.

Anyway, Im still so furious. And very annoyed by his very presence. Yeah, just the thought of him makes me very sour.

Bum.

I missed my blooooog!! Hugsss! :'>

Anyway, I've been a bum for 9 months already. WTF, right? And last night my mom & I had an argument about next schoolyear. She was saying I couldn't study yet, and I was so pissed off, all I could do was cry about it. Then after a few minutes, she told me to look up more schools.

I passed applications to some schools already. I'm just too afraid I wont pass exams like I do before. Hayyyy.

I'm watching American Dad right now. I'll be blogging more later. :D

Gaaah.

Its been a long time since I last posted. Haven't had much time to do so. I've been tooo busy with a lot of stuff.

I started my 365 already, been skipping a lot, though. Hmm, bought a doodle book the other day. :) Its a thick blank book. Been wanting one, but the ones I keep on seeing are too expensive. This one, it costs only P130. Lol. Others are too expensive for quality. Anyway. I also started practicing painting again.. Although, I couldnt quite figure out how I'm gonna finish the thing. Hahaha. Well, nobody's in a rush. :>

Gaaaah. I've been so busy, I havent even gotten any time to pamper myself anymore. Everything has been, Klaud this, Klaud that. Fix this, and that, and that, and blaaaah. My Twitter, is full of updates, though. I don't forget to update that. Hahaha.

Hmm. Speaking of updating, I just realized how many accounts my email address is signed up for. I have TONS of accounts in social networking sites and all. I just dont remember which ones I exactly have, and what passwords I assigned for them. Hahaha. I used to use different passwords for every account I make. But since some incident regarding the forgetting of my password happened, I started using only 2 varieties of passwords.... Which I wanna tell, but won't. Hahaha. A few people know them. Only those I trust :> Well, they trust me too. Hahaha.

The holidays are fast approaching. Would you believe it? Last thing I knew, it was hot as hell during summer, and now the year is almost over. I'll be able to go to a normal school already:) Yaaay for meee!! I have been so bummed here at home. Imagine spending a whole year at home. Sucks bigtime. I just really hope that this time, everything goes smoothly already :> And I made a promise to myself that I will do better. :)

Mobile.

Okay, this is awzm. I never knew I could access blogger from my phone. \:D/ This is so perfect for times like this when I'm too lazy to use my laptop :)

The weather's kinda weird again.... In the morning til about noontime, its hot as hell. In the afternoon, it gets a bit windy, then around 6 in the evening, it gets totally chilly already. This cycle is so bothering.

Why?

Have you ever felt that heavy feeling? That piercing, heart-pounding feeling you get when you're hurt? When you want to cry your heart out but you cant? Well, thats how I'm feeling right now. I've always thought everything was alright. I always told myself not to worry, because I know I can be the best, and I am enough. Technically, I was wrong. I dont wanna tell the whole story here, because of personal reasons. But, why does he have to lie? What is it with people and lying?? I dont get it, really. He said he was telling the truth about this "texter". Well, I texted her, and she said she was a former friend from Y!M. I asked him, and he said no, she was an applicant to their company. Well, if she was an applicant, why would she lie? Without even knowing that I was the one texting her, why on earth would she lie? Why is he lying? Why does he need to hurt me? :'(

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Evacuation.

For the 1 1/2 months that my uncle was in the US, I and Klaud have been occupying his bed here at my grandma's room. The room's spacey, and cooler, compared to ours, since we share it with Mom and Yanna. I've been comfy here. I like how I can use my laptop without ever shutting down, unlike when I transfer there, I need to shut it off most of the time, to prevent overheating. So, tonight, my uncle comes home from the States, and we are needed for evacuation to our old room. Sucks, right? :-( Anyways, I have compromised with my grandma that every time possible, I will stay here. I know she enjoys my company too. We watch Teleseryes at night. Lol.

So, I cleaned up a while ago. Put all our stuffs in a box, placed it on the other room, beside our bed. Together with all our pillows and blankies, and Klaud's friends (animal stuffed toys ^_^). I prefer calling them his "friends" because I dont like him to recognize them as toys only. I want them to have a sentimental value for him, specially when he grows up. But now, we're still here at my grandma's room, utilizing what's left of the time we have before my uncle gets here.

Last night I was thinking of a theme for my 365 project. I couldn't think of any, til earlier this afternoon. I know what it's gonna be about. :-) I will make it my camera's first year with me. I'll see how useful it'll be for me. I still don't know where I'mma put the photos, but for sure I will get started on it. :) I'm actually planning on doing 365's for the rest of my life. Lol. No joke! :-) I'm thinking of putting my 365 on Multiply, since it has albums. So, I could put everything there all the time :-D

He just fell asleep on The Wild, currently showing on Disney Channel. I like how they changed the showing schemes from daily shows from morning to evening, to original Disney movies. I watch Disney more now than Nick. :-)

Uh-oh. It's already 5:30pm, and I haven't even showered yet T-T I must go now, and shower. I think I'mma be back later. :-P

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FOR SALE :)

Maybe anyone here's interested? :)

Its raining.

Its 1 in the afternoon, but to me. it feels like 5 pm already. Its cold, not a slight warm spot in the house. Its a bit dark, not like the usual 1pm we have here- hot and bright. Thank God too for the uber fast net connection we have. We used to suffer from connection loss everytime it rains, but we changed our provider and now we still go online when its raining. :) (Just make sure we have electricity. LOL :D)

Im in the mood for drawing.. I'm planning on giving my two grandmothers works of mine. :) Im planning to give Lola Mommy a family portrait - Her, Tito Ry, Tito Jay, Mommy, Yanna, Me and Klaud. :) For Mama, I think this is gonna be pretty hard.. I'mna draw, US (Daddy, Yanna, Ate Abby and Me.), Tita Alma's family (Tita Alma, Tito Iloy, Jolo, Ate Aya and the Twins.), Tita Alaine's Family ( Tita Alaine, Tito Ed, Rich, Mille and Billie. ), and of course, Mama and Papa. I'mna get started on it already. I asked Lola to buy me illustration boards for it. :)

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Good thing Blogger has an autosave feature. We lost connection for about 3 minutes, due to power blackout. That's the only thing I hate about rain... We often get blackouts. Some last a few minutes, some HOURS. :/ Not few hours, many many many long hours. Which sometimes even result to days of power loss. I srsly cant believe Im able to deal with stuff like that.

Okay, back to what I think I should give my grandmothers. I am still thinking of what medium to use for coloring, though. I'm thinking between colored pencils, or water color/poster color. I merely suck at both, but I think I can work things better with paint. But, we'll have to find out about that soon. I'm gonna be working on Mama's gift first. :) Since, she has tons more of grandchildren than Lola. Hahaha.

I think I can experiment on mediums to be used, since illustration boards cost like only Php 10.00 or lower. Im not gonna make one that's so big. I will be doing it on a board measuring 1/8. I was planning to do it on canvas, but I dont have budget for it and acrylic paint. (Watercolor doesnt do good on canvas, just so yknow.)

Im also thinking of doing a 365 project soon, since I failed to start with Klaud's arrival. I did want to start, but I kept on forgetting. I'm thinking of what occasion to start of with. This time, I know I'll be able to do it, because Tito Ry got me an advanced Christmas gift, a Sony Cybershot point and shoot cam. I was asking for a dSLR, but they said it was to expensive, and was too unreasonable. I can take very clear shots with the camera he bought me, though. 14 MP FTW!! Lol. But I have read reviews about it, and not all users were quite happy with the gadget. Well, wth. I'm 17, I like taking pics of myself... Any camera would do!! :P

I'm just so excited to start on my art. :) Can't wait for Lola to come hoooome! :D

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Today's the 8th of September. Happy Birthday, Mama Mary! :)

Okay. I went to Gateway with Lola today. Well, didn't actually buy stuff, but I went there. Strolled around. Ate alot. Lol. I accompanied Lola to the Salon. She had her nails done. I was gonna have mine done too, but I thought of waiting until next week, since next weekend will be Chriselle's 18th birthday. She themed her party, a Red-Black&&White party. I wanted to wear heels, since it is a debut. But I will fall off if I do. :/ So... I settled on wearing boots... Again. Hahahahah. They never have their party guests go semi-formal or formal. Hahahaha. Patsy had hers a casual party, too.

Enough talk about debuts. I'm srsly getting bored with my life na :( Hahahaha.

Last night, I had a talk with Mico about studying and working. He insists getting a job then study later, than study now and work later. I prefer getting a degree first, because graduates are prioritized, rather than undergrads. I just hope he listens to me this time.

Patriarchal speaking.

LOL.

Haha. We just got home from a visit to Mico's parents :D Its been a month already since we last went there. They were just to welcoming. And I felt happy there too. :) I felt really comfy with them.

We went to the doctor earlier. Klaud had his Pentaxim shot. Over a month, he gained a surprising 3lbs. Lol XD And he didnt cry during the shot. Hahaha.

Anyways, I'm dead tired. I'll blog maybe tomorrow morning. :)

I WANNA WATCH JOHN MAYER!

Oh nose.

My uncle's about to come home from the US already :) He's buying alot for us there. Tons of pasalubongs for everyone.

Anyway, I gave up my dreams on getting my own dSLR.

I know I wont have one, unless I enroll in Fine Arts again. Sadly, I will be transferring to IT next year. For a better future, and for more opportunities. It hurts to leave Fine Arts for good, but I do need a secure future. I wont be giving up on my own art naman, e. :) I'll be leaving the course, not my talent. So, its still good.

I barely see Mico. He works at Ortigas. I believe the company's name is Magnasol. So, yeah. Anyway. It feels so bad not having him around to talk to. Actually, I dont have anyone to talk to anymore. I have my grandma here all the time, but she wont enjoy the same stories Mico and I talk about. She wouldnt understand me the way Mico does. Now, I can really say I need him.

Being like this full time is somewhat tiring, but fun :) Being the only witness of all his developments, and such. It feels relieving.

Now, I describe myself as a HAPPY person, inside and out. Physically, mentally and emotionally. :)

Noah

Theres a TV show on ABS CBN called Noah.

Its a fantasy themed one. And because I have nothing else to do, I watch it every night. Lol.

Popoy and Tebs dropped by earlier. They brought Pizza. :3 I treated them the uber delicious isaw from here. Haha. I missed those two. I used to hang out with them ALL the time. :) Back when I wasnt in this situation yet. Lol. Anywaysss. Its almost dinner time. I just missed blogging. I will be blogging more soon :)

Bum.

Its been 8 months since I last went to school. I miss it, though.

Well, its fun being a bum when you're around a little angel who shoots you that big toothless grin just when you're about to give up. :3

Anyway, Mico found a job again... And I hope he keeps it this time. Lol. :3

A little something about 8-23-10

I know by now, everyone must've heard about the Quirino Grandstand Hostage Taking on August 23rd, 2010. Its an incident that wasnt held the way it was supposed to be. Police officers were careless, and at the same time afraid of what could've happened. But its too late for sympathies, the damage has been done.

Well, this is just my own insight on what had happened. I dont even think it is Capt. Rolando Mendoza's fault. Its the government's too. Well, the past administration, I can say. He was dismissed on 2008. P-Noy was elected only this year. So, none of this was his fault. Anyway, why not blame him? According to the people who know him.. He was one of the best policemen our country has. He was kindhearted and didnt mean no harm to anyone. He was caught in a case, "hulidap", which I believe was extorting money from a client. I dont exactly know what it is, so correct me if I'm mistaken. :) People were telling the media that he wasnt really a part of it, damay damay lang talaga, because he was handling the case. The government didn't analyze the problem and dismissed him asap. They were even talking about a 7-month period? Whatever that is. He said that it was past the 7-month thing and he needed his benefits, his job back.

Now back to the said story, he wasn't a bad man. There were even stories from the survivors that he treated them well, and promised to let them go after everything is okay. But the authorities just had to blame his brother, and drag him violently to the mobile vehicle. That possibly triggered his anger, which made him shoot bullets in every direction. If they didnt do that to his brother, nobody would've died or got hurt. So I say, blame the careless policemen, not the dead guy. He just wanted his job back. His job which he loved. He was so dedicated.

Because of the authorities' carelessness that evening, we are now banned from most countries, making foreigners think that every Filipino would do that to foreign people. Thanks, though. You just made our country the worst place to be in. ><

Flat Tops. Spaghetti, and Coke.

I'm here at my Dad's house. :) Currently in the office area, where the only computer and internet connection is located. I can't live without this, I'd die with no internet. Loljk. Anyways. I made this new Tumblr site a few days ago. It's where I'm gonna look for anonymous people to be friends with. I like making friends with strangers. I don't like my world rotating on my school friends, childhood friends and friends of friends. I wanna meet more people, from here and there and from everywhere!! :D

Anyway, they're all asleep. I really miss Klaud, though. Last time I called Mom, she said he was kinda feverish. But the next I checked, he was already sleeping. That's good, though. We want him to grow big and healthy as fast as he could. He actually is getting bigger already, and I praise myself for it. :) I am a good mother, and I helped him grow fast and healthy :) I love him to bits and pieces. He gets a tight hug and lots of kisses from me when I get back :D

HB Yanna. :)

Today is the 24th :) My little sister's 10th birthday. Well, I'm not quite sure if I should still call her little. She is literally big, yknow. Hahahaha. Anyway. I got up extra early today, because Klaud had poop and didn't stop crying until he was clean. Weeeew. Being me is a tough, dirty job. Lol. Lola also got up early, but that's because my sister had Saturday classes and needed to be there early. :) Then she bought food for Yanna's feast :) We have baked mac, chicken, kare-kare, cake and ice cream :> She'll be here by noon, and we'll be leaving to buy her a gift.

I'm actually thinking of what to dress Klaud up with :) I haven't washed his new red stuffs, so those are off of my list... For now :)

Great, just guh-reaaaayt.

This Saturday, my younger sister's turning 10. Although she doesnt really seem like she's just 10 years old to me.... I think of her as an old woman, trapped in a child's body. Lololololol. Srsly. She's just soooooo naggy. Like my grandma. HAHAHA. Anywaysss. Advanced Happy Birthday, Yannna! :>

Ch-ch-check it awwwwt.

I got myself a notebook with a garter on it, sort of a lock. I'm making it my diary/journal :) I write and draw lots of stuff there. I've only been on it for about three days (?) and I've consumed more than three pages already. Well, maybe because the notebook is small and my writing's fat and big.... Oh, whatever. Let's just consider that. Lol. I'mma buy notebooks like this whenever I get this one filled already:) It costs only P99.00 :) And its thick. Weee. I doodle on it, write what I think and more. Someday I may have the pages scanned and I'll upload 'em for more people to know what and how I think about the world, and the petty things I see. :)

Today was not such a creative day for me. I only wrote like 2 times on my journal. I fetched Yanna from school, which was epic because they had bus trips at 3pm. She thought they didnt, which was the cause of my arrival there. :)

Now, my grandma's having an attitude problem. AGAIN. She got home from somewhere and when she got here, she was hot-headed as hell. Really. She was like Godzilla. Like destroying everything in sight, only in her case, scolding everyone in sight. I wish I could stay in hiding, like in a closet, in the bathroom, or under the bed... Technically, I could. Since there's wifi here..... Nahhh. Anyway. I hate it when she does this. To think that I was sitting silently in front of my laptop, I was harmless and speechless, then she suddenly shouts and scolds me. Wtf. Well, she's old. Her only past time is to get mad at each and every one of us every single day of our lives. I dont know, she's been like this for some time now, but I still am not used to this drill. Or maybe I dont want to. Its just so stressful. SO STRESSFUL!

I want to live in peace. Even just for one day. ONE DAY, LORD!! ONE DAY PLEASE!! :|

A disco ball is just hanging by a thread :)

Good morning, Blogger. Lol. I'm up slightly a bit earlier than usual. I have no idea why. Hahaha. Anyway, its a cold Friday morning. And I have nothing to do. :O I'm here in the living room.... Because there's no wifi, and the ethernet cable is here. Hahaha. I'm here with Klaud in his bumblebee mat. Its a play mat with a few bars with assorted toys hanging. And from what I am seeing, he's enjoying it there. Lol. Anyways. I had a small breakfast, because Klaud was also awake when I woke up. I ate bread and eggs. Scrambled eggs. :P

Lola and Tito Ryan are very busy. They're making sure everything Tito Ry's gonna bring to the US are okay. Wew. I'mma miss him :| He's the only person I can talk to about stuff I like, mostly because we share just about the same interests. He was the one who treated me to Paramore's concert earlier this year, he updates me on things such as, Glee. Where else would you find an uncle like that? :P Well, he's going for 2 months only, though. So, that's just a short time. I just wish his company won't send him back for years. He was talking about that earlier this month. That, if the company representatives there like him, his work and all, his company might send him there for 2-5 years. He'd be like migrating:| But whatever happens, Im sure I'll miss him, and I dont want to lose the bond we have. Bon Vouyage, Tito Ry! ;)

Point and Shoot

Im back after weeeeeks of no blogging and not much internet activity :D Its hard to pick out which to tell about. Hmm. Well, it's the 15th of July :) On Sunday, the 18th, my dad's 39th birthday, and the departure of my uncle to the states. He's leaving for a company trip, he's an engineer. He'll be leaving for only 2 months. But still, we had him bring a list of things we asked him to buy for us. Lol.

I've been so busy lately. I barely had time to sleep. :O Longest time is about 3 hours :| Besides my activities, there are these intense power black-outs that last for 4 - 5 hours. Wew.

Klaud has been doing progress too, though :) He's growing so fast. And he's turning to be a really handsome kid. He can laugh already. Hahaha. And everybody loves him. :> He turned 2 months yesterday, and here he is now. :) Cute, eh? Hehe. I love him to bits and pieces.

I'd be lost in space without you

Good morning. :P

So it's another Saturday morning. I'm trying my best to blog as frequently as possible, but I guess I end up doing it weekly. Lol. Anyway, my week kind of went right. Starting with Sunday. :)

Last Sunday was Father's Day. And I spent it with my dad. :) We had lunch together with all my relatives on their side. Then had dinner at Trinoma. This photo was taken then. Kinda dark, though, my phone doesn't have quite a beautiful camera. Haha. Plus, this was at the carpark area, so it was really dark. :) Anyway, we got presents, since my dad was from Dubai, and my older sister came home from the US, but went back even before we got the chance to see each other.

Then the week went well. :) Yesterday, I went to the mall with Lola. :) We bought clothes. We bought Klaud some, too. I was supposed to buy new skirts, but I couldnt find any:( Bummer.

Anyway, I have to go. I might continue this a bit later, I have to go take a shower.... Klaud puked on me. :&

Its a cold Saturday afternoon.

Mico is busy running his requirements. My grandma, uncle and sister went shopping for school supplies. I'm stuck at home with my Mom and Klaud.

Malling is one thing I really miss. I used to be able to go to the mall everyday. Or if not, more than once a week. Now, I get to go to malls like, only few times a MONTH. Well, tomorrow's a Sunday.. So I get a day off from what I do here. :) No. Not literally a DAY off, I can say an afternoon off. I get to go out, to the church, and spend time with Mico like we do before. I like Sundays. I feel happy when it's a Sunday :)

On Monday, Klaud is 1 month old. We will be celebrating. I'll cook spaghetti, and I will ask Mico to buy cake :) Not the expensive ones. We won't be able to eat them all. Hahaha. I might be asking him to buy those DIY Cakes sold on Goldilocks. :) Or, that and I'll bake Klaud a cake myself. :D If... I get to buy the ingredients tomorrow. But from what I see now, it looks like I wouldn't be baking until July :( We need the money for the end of the month. He needs vaccines which cost thousands. :|

Anyway, I am happy that he's doing well, though :>

I sent my dad a text yesterday. I was asking him to meet up with me. Because I might be busy these coming days. He said he was busy. Not my fault anymore. I did my part and made a way to see him, he refused.

I'm on Looklet again. Lol. ~

TGIF. Thank God, its Fridaaaay!

Lol. Nonsense on the title again. =))

Today's not much of a busy day, though its only 6pm. I think I slept through the whole afternoon with Klaud. Lol. He's growing already :DD And I like it. Even if I get mostly about only 3 - 4 hours of sleep a day........ Well, it's all worth everything. :)

I read on Facebook, Jerico Torres, had pleaded enough and still got another chance for UST. Bummer, eh? When I didn't, he did. Well, as for me.. I'm pretty sure to get in at PUP already. Tuition's so low. I can literally enroll myself for a fee of 500 pesos, and that's it for the whole semester. It's a big help. My sister's school had a tuition fee price hike, and we didn't have enough money. So, instead of paying about the same price as my sister's school fees, I'mma be cutting down, and spending less than 1/4 of the amount spent on her. Plus, PUP offers quality education, at a low price. :) State University, eh! Lol.

Anyway, this past week, I've been eating a lot of instant noodles. :| I like the hot soup. I give the noodles to my sister. Hahahaha. Yeah, we compromised. Whenever I cook noodles, I get the soup (and some noodles too.) and the rest goes to her.

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I had a few short conversations with my dad last week. 'Twas horrible.

The first incident was, too. He wanted to be with us the next morning after he called. I was too busy, so I said NO. We were talking to each other, about me, and my sister, and enrollment and stuff, he suddenly got mad and wild and started blaming my mom for everything. Cool, huh. So this made me hate him. And now, I am not even thinking of spending time with him before school starts.

I hate how they make everything sound like it's our fault. Like it's our fault I had to enroll the same day he wanted to see us. Like its our fault that he's too busy when we're not. Well, come to think of it... Everything is HIS fault. If it weren't for him, we wouldn't be living far from him. We wouldn't be a broken family, we wouldn't be feeling sorry for not being as wealthy and happy as they are. If there's someone to be blamed for everything, MY DAD'S THE PERFECT ONE TO.

I sort of forgot and had forgiven him for all his past mistakes, and troubles which involved us. But because of the recent thing that happened, which was blaming my mom for our schedules not to be matching... I pity him. I swore that I will not talk to him or them. That I will not give them any more of my attention and time from that day on. I can't have them blaming my mother for everything. Now he blames my mom, next he will blame my whole family. They dont even consider us as family anymore.

I am not materialistic. I don't care about his gifts. I am human, I have feelings. ~

Hello

Im back after how many days. :| OH, GOD I MISSED BLOGGER :'(

Anyway, I didnt have much time to blog anymore, since I got new responsibilities. :) More things to do and more priorities now. :)

I lost weight. A lot of weight since last week. :D I tried controlling my diet already. Take note, I TRIED. Hahahahaha. I'm trying Atkins Diet. Its a low-carb diet. More protein, less carbs.

Tito Jay had a 14" Manhattan Meat Lovers pizza delivered from Yellowcab a while ago. Since I didnt have lunch, that was the only thing I ate, and I was satisfied. Yummm. Btw, my tongue still hurts from yesterday's stupid incident. :| I made a cup of hot choco, I let it for a while to cool down, and not more than 5 minutes later, I sipped from the cup. I burned my tongue. Lol. I guess it's what gluttony brings. Haha!

I went to church with Mico yesterday. :) 'Twas our 25th Month Anniversary yesterday, and decided to spend it in the church. Yuhhh. :> CHURCH! :D But we werent alone, though. My grandma and uncle were with us. Then we went uptown, bought Klaud some diapers, ate at Chowking, and then went home. He didnt come with me here, though. He went to his aunt's house, he was called there for an interview for his next job, since he quit his last one. Too bad, though. He was friends with everybody there already, and everyone there knew me as his wife already. Lol. So, I didnt have worries on third parties there. Haha! Well, a new start for him. I just hope he doesnt quit as easily on his next one.

I'm currently waiting for Mico, Tebs and Popoy. They're gonna visit us. :D Yeah, I feel sick. Hahaha. They had to visit me. :| ~

Disconnected.

Gaaaah. I lost internet connection for like, 2 days. :| I thought I was gonna die. Lol.

Klaud's coming home June 1 :D Im so excited.

Plain bullcrap

Im just so sick and tired of all this bullshit happening in my life. It started with having Klaud so early, then to stressing out with the heat, then to not having to enroll yet, and now guess what. I talked to my dad on the phone about an hour ago, and nothing went well. 'Twas plain shit. Instead of getting hyped and psyched about seeing each other, it was just frustrating. Now, I never want to talk to him. EVER.

UGHHHHH SO MUCH BAD VIBES! I hate this.

Well, anyway. I was there again at EAMC, and Klaud was under the phototheraphy light again, Idk why. But he's a lot better now, and he opens his eyes alot also. :> Tomorrow, Imma see him again. :D ~

Stop talk, talk, talking.

Hi, hello. Hello, hi. :)

I was at the hospital today. And I fed bebe boy. Lol. The doctors had Mico and Mom in the NICU today, so I wasnt the only one experiencing it. Hahaha. And we got photos! :) Baby Klaud opened his eyes for us already, unlike the other days....... He was always asleep. Haha! But I think he only did because he was really hungry already, because I was cuddling him, his eyes were closed then he suddenly burst out in tears. When I tried feeding, he instantly latched on. Hahaha. He's sooo cute. I wanted to bring him home with me already. Hahaha. Actually, we can already. But the doctors said he needs to stay there a little bit more. :) But in about 9 days, he is free to come home with me already. Gaaaah. He got my eyes. :) But he has everything from Mico. Lol. He has a cleft chin, too! Hahahaha! Idk where that came from though.

Anyway, Im watching The Buzz on ABS CBN. The story is about Noynoy Aquino and his girlfriend Shalani Soledad. Such a beautiful woman. Lol. I like their love story. Hahaha.

Tomorrow, I will be coming to the doctor's. After there, to see Klaud again. :) Then maybe we'll have lunch together, then I'll come back home, while Mico goes to work. :D Lol. Its a date! Hahahaha! Im wondering if I should bring more milk.... He might not need any more, since I brought so much today. Haha! Well, that's good for him, though. He needs the nutrients. He needs to get fatter, because he's so skinny. I want to bring him home already. Lol. When I do, I might not be able to blog so much anymore. Hahahah! Anyway. Imma go for now. Byyee.

If we ever meet again

Its 11:42 pm, almost midnight. Nothing so special. Well, today's the 22nd, birthday of a close friend, Harley. :) I greeted him through FB and Twitter only, since he's in Canada already. Well, he's been there a long time, about 3 years already. Anyway. I went to visit Klaud again in the hospital this afternoon. They took off his oxygen support already, since he's able enough to breathe on his own. Good progress! :') They said they would be taking off the dextrose, too. Another thing to be happy about :D And in about 9 days, I will be able to take him home with me already :> The specialist said he could be discharged as early as tomorrow, but they'd rather keep him in, until he finishes all his medications there, which again would take about 9 days. Well, I got to carry him and feed him today, but not so much. Lol. He was just fed when I came. Bummmmer. Anyway, tomorrow, we're planning to come in early, like around 10am, maybe he gets to feed straight from me. :) Since the oxygen support's gone, there isnt anything on his face anymore. I saw it clearer. He was sleeping when I came, so he wasnt waddling around so much, and I saw him clearly, he does look a lot like Mico. A LOT. Lol. He was yawning every now and then, must be really tired. Idk how he gets tired but he seems to be. Haha! His hair was so thick, and he had hair all over his face, and his shoulders and all. He was trying to open his eyes, but I guess he still cant, so he looked really weird. Hahaha. He got small chinky eyes, again Idk where he got that. But his chin was exactly like mine, he has puffy cheeks, a tiny nose, and a very small mouth, too. He had thin eyebrows. Also, he has very little but very long fingers, and toes. Lol. He's a long baby, and my mom said he'd grow up to be a big man. I hope so! :)

After we went to the hospital, my uncles wanted to watch Shrek. Idk what number that was already, 3 or 4. Well anyway, I went to the mall with them today, but I didnt go watch Shrek. I only ate dinner with them, and payed off mommy's credit card bill, then I went home due to weird wooziness, and unbelievable pain from my stitches. I guess I still need to rest and recover more here at home, before I can really get out and be sociable again. Maybe 2 or 3 weeks more. Lol. But in about 2 weeks, baby Klaud will be home, and I will have no time to get out alot no more. On my own. But I guess when my dad calls and comes, we need to come with 'em.

Im scratching my eyes, I forgot I had mascara on. -

Anyway, I gotta hit the sack. I will be visiting Klaud early in the morning tomorrow. I need strength and I need to sleep now. ~

OH MY ASKAJLKJDLANDLKA! =))

Dont mind the title. I just cant think of anything =)

Okay, so it's 12:00 PM exactly. Lunch time here. But food's not ready yet, so I'mma be blogging. LOL. We're having spare ribs for lunch.... YUMMMMMMMMM. Hahahaha. I got nothing planned today, actually. Well, except for the visit to Klaud later this afternoon, nothing more.

I hope he's hungry when I get there. Because I wanna hold him again :) And I cant do that if he was already fed. Lol. Anyway. I want to hear great news later. Like, when we can bring him home. Im so psyched to have him here. Anyway, Im outta words. ._______. I think I may have lots of stuff again to write when I get back. Ciao. ~

Haha. Hihi. Hoho.

9PM

So, I went to the hospital today. And I got to see and hold Klaud already :") He was soooo tiny. His arms and legs were so fragile :| And his head was, too. He was opening his eyes already!! But I got to hold him so close, and I made him stop crying and all. But they had to do blood transfusion, so I had to put him back on the bed-like thingy he was in. He wasnt in the incubator anymore, but there was the big light still on top of him. So, I was there, and I was playing with his tiny hands, and he was crying because of the oxygen tube thing on his nose kept falling off. Lol. I felt so bad though. I didnt want to leave him crying..... :'( He was crying when I left. Sucks to be me. I was so hurt. :'(

Anyway, I left him milk for today. Lol. And I want to come visit him again tomorrow :| I really reeeeeeally want to. If only I could go there and see him everyday, I would. But, I guess I cant, since I cant commute yet, and Tito Jay isnt always available for transportation.

Im dead tired. :| And my stitches are weirdly hurting tonight. So... I will be resting now. :) But I still am the happiest mom. Lol. ~

Early bird

Uhhh. Okay, so I'm up at 5:35 am. Lol. Actually I was up about an hour ago. But I had things done so... Yeah. :P Haha!

I woke up, woke mommy up, (She was late for work.) and asked her to clean out my stitches for me, since I'm not able to see where they are, and if I did the cleaning myself, that would be a very very very large risk. Lol. Anyway. I dont feel weariness anymore. So, I think I will be up for the morning, but I'm guessing only about until 7 or 8am.

Very early at 5am, though. Maybe my body clock is already preparing for when Klaud gets home. (Yippeee! :D) Or, maybe I'm just really really excited about visiting him this afternoon, that it woke me up so early. Weird, though. I will be visiting him at 4pm later this afternoon, not early in the morning.... So, what's the point of having to wake up this early? Lol. Anyway, I think I wont be walking around so much today, I'm saving all my strength and my painkillers for when I visit Klaud. Lol. I know Imma need them painkillers when I get there. Mom said the hospital had no elevators, and Klaud's on the third floor. Gaaaah. XD Anyhooooze, that wont stop me from getting to my little man :')

Anyway. Too much excitement already. Let's talk about some other stuff. Haha! :3

So... I said I will do my 365 when I have him. I havent started it, though :| Since I havent brought him home yet, my plans are postponed 'til then. :D I am planning on starting soon, when I confirm daily trips to the hospital. :> But if I dont, I'll wait until he's well enough to come home with me. I haven't gotten my phone from my dad yet, though. And I have no camera available at the moment, so I guess my 365 wont be starting yet. Lol.

I'm wondering what my life would be when he's here..................... I'm not thinking about the pain, trouble, and whatnot, I'm thinking of how happy I will be. :D

Oh, well. Just needed to let things out. :> Be back later, before or after I go visit him. :') ~

Better in time.

* Baby Boy, we will see each other tomorrow, okay? I love you to death. <3

Yes, we will be better in time. WE WILL :')

So I will be sleeping with a very big smile on my face tonight.... Because of all the improvements Baby Klaud is doing :D And tomorrow, I will visit him in the hospital he's currently confined in. And since he's able to feed already, I will be breastfeeding for the very first time tomorrow. I dont really know how to, but people keep on telling me that I dont need to learn, because I already know. Mother's instincts. :) Well, anyway.... I'm a bit nervous, because I dont know if the pain would be severe, since I cant be standing all the time, I need to sit down from moment to moment. :| Ughhhh. That's my only fear for now. But, still. Nothing will beat my happiness. Nothing will change my mood tonight, because I am happier than ever for my baby boy :D

Okay, so I already pumped about 5oz of breastmilk, which will be left for Klaud in the hospital, so he'll be able to feed on my milk while he's there. :D At the moment, doctors say he feeds on other mom's breastmilk..... So, yeah. Awkward *_* Lol. It will be healthier for him if the milk comes from me. Because I am his mother.

Anyhoooo. I'mma be logging off in a while, nothing much more to say, words cant express my emotions at the moment. First, because Klaud made veeeeery large progress already. Second, he is so Bibbo daw. :D He's so malikot and all. I want to see him. And third, I will visit him there tomorrow!! \:D/ I am at my happiest today, I think.

JASGLHKHNLIASCALKJSDHJKL!!!!!!!!!

I just had to get that out. :P Lol. I have so much to put, but I need to log off and rest. I feel weak from all the pumping I did this day. Night! ~

Happy, happy.

2:15 PM

I just got news from Mico's mom. :) My baby boy's off the ventilator/respirator. He is now feeding! :) I want to hold him so bad. I want to see him. Now that I can walk, and be on my own. Im pretty sure I will be with him in no time. :) His mom also said, that Klaud may be out of the incubator by tomorrow... Hopefully. :D Im so happy. Just so so soooo happy.

This morning, I expressed milk for the baby. Mico brought it there, for him to feed on. Mico's mom said the baby was so matakaw already. :> When he gets home, everything will be ready. His toys, his clothes, his bottles, his everything and me!! :D I just cant help the excitement. I am so full of joy right now, I would jump if I could. :D Hahahaha.

I was gone.

I was gone for half a week. I was admitted at Fairview General Hospital. From May 14th to May 18th, because I had my little man! :")

Here he is, Theodore Klaud Lopez Jacobe. Born May 14th, 2010 :)

He was lacking 2 weeks to term. So, I haven't seen or held him yet. :( He's still at the Neonatal ICU, and we're all hoping to see him very soon. I want to see him so bad, I cry almost every night since he was born. But now I have to focus on recovering, getting better, and praying harder. Since, these are the only things I can do, due to having delivered him c-section. I am having troubles regaining balance, and tolerating the piercing pain that the stitches bring. But I will soon be better, for my baby boy.

He is there due to lung prematurity. He cant breathe on his own yet :( But he's making progress. And with all the prayers, positivity and medicines he's taking, I hope he gets better reeeeeal soon. I havent seen him yet, but I miss him. :'( I want to hold him. I want to feel that first-time-mom feeling. :'{ (Okay, I am now bursting to tears again........... T_T)

Anyway, he looks a lot like his dad. :) He got his father's nose and lips. And he's soooo handsome. Well, that's what I see from the photos that my mom had taken before he was brought to the ICU. He kept on crying, until Mico was with him. :') This scene made me smile, when he told it to me. He was pumping air into the tubes on the baby's respirator. He was talking to him, and he said, "Pagaling ka na agad, ha? Gustong gusto ka na makita ng mommy mo, eh." After he said that line, the baby grabbed his finger. The baby had his eyes shut, so he must've grabbed it by instinct. And when Mico was asking for replacement on pumping the air, the baby again grabbed his finger, and maybe didnt want to let him go. Well.... At least he recognized his father's voice. :')

I just found out that he has Respiratory Distress Syndrome. :'( I am now googling on how he will be okay, what we can do to make him better..

Okay. I didnt like anything I have read. :| All I would want to do now is pray. For his betterment, for his health, and for mine. God, please help me. :'( I am ready to do anything to make him better. ANYTHING :_( ~

Open Season 2.

Open Season 2 on HBO :)

Good noon. Its May 12th. Cant believe how fast days are going. I'm not disappointed, though :) I am actually quite happy about it. The more days passing by, the lesser the wait. I just hope it comes soon. And I mean literally, SOON :")

So, Im logged in on almost all my accounts on social sites. Im on Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook, Plurk and Blogger. I am currently signing in to Yahoo! Messenger.... Which actually is taking longer than usual. Anyway, I finished two things last night. I was able to do a sketch of a girl, and a colored painting of the skinny angel bitch I drew a few days ago. I will include it in another post in a while.

Anywayyyyy. Today's Mico's day-off from work :> I think he'll come visit. I hope he will. I miss him so much. <3

We're home alone.. Again. Because everybody just left. Lol. Well, its okay though. Im getting used to being left home alone. Besides the peacefulness, I get to do what I want. :D ~

Swish.

I am now in my grandma's room. Sitting on my uncle's bed. :P Why? Because our room is frigggggin' hot today. :| Its unusually hot there. I dont know how my sister manages to stay there. =)) Anyway. I like staying here. It's cool, even if the sun is up so high. Idk why. :)

Well, I am not in the mood to paint. Last night I was. Now Im not anymore :( So, I will do portrait sketching again :) This time, a bit bigger. :D

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Aquino and Binay still leading.

I hope there will be no scams this election. They should be honest. This is not just for them, for me, or for anyone, its for the welfare of the whole country. May God bless whoever manages the counting. ~

Paint. Paint. More Paint.

This will be my last post for today... I hope. Lol. Im planning on doing a painting tomorrow :) Well, a watercolor painting, not a real canvas painting. I'll do it maybe on a small illustration board only. :D I just had the urge to. Idk why.

Anyway. I made a new FB account, since I cant go reeeeally active on the other one. I needed a way to communicate with my friends. So, yeah. I made one. But not in my name. Lol. I searched for Greek Gods and Goddesses. And came up with Eos and Asteria. :> Cooool. Well, I'm not in such a good mood to blog tonight, since I have blogged a lot today. Hahaha. Anywayssss. Good night, now. I will be resting soon. I just didnt want my blog to be outdated. :D

OMGOMG. Estrada and Aquino - Close fight on Presidency. Binay, number 1 for VP. I hope Aquino wins! ~

iPod.

So today, we found out that almost all our iPods have empty batteries.

I decided to charge all the iPods. My mom's, my sister's and mine.

Yanna's and my mom's were iPod shuffles. Yanna had a first gen shuffle, mom has a second gen shuffle. I have a second gen nano, and a second gen mini, which was corrupted about a year and a half ago. This kinda pushed me to repair my old iPod. :) After syncing all the iPods and charging them, I immediately looked for the old iPod mini, and started to look for manuals on the Apple site for tutorials on restoring, formatting and repairing the old device. I plugged it to my laptop, and waited. It was charging at first. Only charging :| I wanted to stop right there. But my hopes are high. I waited, and while I waited I ate some of the Suman that Lola brought home last night. :D Lol. Anyway, after I ate, I saw my laptop's screen, and the iTunes library suddenly popped up, with the photo of the iPod Mini on it. So that means it is syncing. I was overjoyed. I cleaned up where I ate, and ran straight back here. But I saw some messages saying, I needed to format it. So I did. After all the restoring and the formatting, I am now trying to sync songs into the iPod for use. I have been trying. This is the third time, though. It keeps on saying "Disk cannot be read from or written to" SUCKS BIGTIME.

Okay, now after the fourth time I tried. I GAVE UP. I am now pulling it out. ~

BV.

Wala lang. BV.

My day was bad since it started. I woke up to a hot room, because my mom was blow-drying her hair beside my bed. I waited for everyone to leave before I got up for breakfast, and I was soooo pleased by what I saw --- NOT! There wasnt ANY food prepared. I was too hungry, so I made a cup of chocolate milk, to pass my hunger. Then I cooked pancakes, which I didnt get any credit for, they even got mad, and scolded me. FTW. What was I supposed to do?? Die of hunger?! UGH. I wasnt really feeling well this morning so I lay down and slept. I woke up to another very hot room again. This time, thanks to the mother effin' sun's positioning. Since it was noon, its lunch time. I went out of the room, soaked in sweat. Everyone was there, eating happily. I went to the bathroom to take a bath first, and when I went out, I was about to eat when they announced that there was no more rice. How on earth am I going to eat lunch without rice or even bread around?? My sister and I fought over a box of chocolates which I have been craving for since last night. AND GUESS WHAT? I was the wrong one again because I was scolding my sister for eating too much sweets. Then it lead to a lot of things again. Because everyone was in on the issue. To think that I was talking to MY sister and my sister alone. I went back in the room, slammed the door, and played music as loud as I could possible handle. My mom asked me to eat, I said NO. I will, when everyone leaves.

Fuck interactions. I dont want connection with anyone today, because I am damn sure that no one can change my mood even a bit.

This heat, this condition, they have no consideration! And I cant even go to the mall to be cooled down. How great is my life!? Sucks to be me! Be happy you are not in the same position as me, be happy that you are not me. Because if you were, you would have probably committed suicide by now. Which I've been planning a long time already, but I am too scared to. ~

A success.

Good morning, blog.

Good morning, internet.

Good morning, Mr. HP Pavilion dv2000.

Lol.

I woke up at around 9am today. :) Yessss. I woke up two hours earlier than I usually do! Well, last night, I planned on sleeping early and I logged out before midnight. And guess what? :D I was successful! :) I slept like around 12:30am. Or was that 1am. Well, whatever time that was, It wasnt my usual time of sleep. It was earlier :) And maybe that's the reason why I am up this early, too.

Today is May 10th, Local and National Elections. Whew. I hope no scam will happen this time. Anyway, everybody here left early, to vote. I am not of legal age yet, so I was left here at home with our helper and my sister. When we woke up, everybody seemed to have eaten up the food Lola prepared.. And I was hungry. So, I whipped up a couple of pancakes, and ate breakfast with my younger sister. She loves pancakes, I actually dont know, or get why. But, she can live on pancakes, and pancakes alone. Oh, and soda too. Lol. My sister's a junkie. Hahahaha.

Yeah, so today's election day. It's considered a holiday. Mico's at work. Well, preparing for work, that is. He's too early today :( He'll be there at 12nn, then finish off at 10pm. Man, that's 10 hours, but he has a 2-hour break. But still not worth. :| But its kinda okay, though. He's getting like additional 30% pay. (Yeah, I know holidays were supposed to be like, double pays. But government implemented a 30% addition instead of doubling it. Bummer.) So, he's on his way there now. And Im stuck here again doing nothing.

Gaaah. The heat, yet again is so fcking deadly. I must shower. ~

Sleep early.

Tomorrow is May 10th.

The first ever automated elections to be held in the Philippines.

VOTE WISELY.

I'mma logout early tonight. I dont feel like staying up late. I just hope I get to sleep early. :| Night!~

Mom's Day.

"Being a full-time mother is one of the highest salaried jobs... since the payment is pure love."

Happy Momma's Day to all the moms out theeere! :>

Whew. I wasnt out today, but I havent blogged since this morning. This is unusual. Lol. Anyway. We stayed home for Mother's Day, we actually spent it without bonding. Haha! See, my grandma and my uncles left early for a visit to my grandpa at the cemetery. I know its mother's day, not father's day. Haha. They visited him there because May 8th was my grandparents' wedding anniversary. So, yeah. They visited him :) Which left my sis, my mom and me here at home. Oh! There was bonding. A bit of bonding. This afternoon, since the weather was dehydrating, my sister decided to have her kiddie pool inflated and filled with cold water. She swam for about 3 or 4 hours. My mom joined her, I was the photographer. Hahaha. I didnt really like swimming there..... I felt so huge in that pool. :| Anyway, that was the only bonding that happened here today. We spent most of the day apart from each other. Mom was in the living room, playing her computer game. My sister was in my grandma's room, watching TV and playing with her dolls, while I was here in the same room I am right now, editing and chatting with friends. Today felt kinda awkward, since this was the first Mother's day we spent at home. Usually, the family goes out to lunch, or dinner. Yeah, we usually bond on occasions like this. Unlike today. :| Oh, well. Things change, and we just have to accept them.

So, this morning I woke up a bit late. Around 11am, I think. Because I had a hard time sleeping again last night. I was up until it was about 4am already, then I suddenly fell asleep, still not knowing how. :| Lol. When I woke up, Lola, Tito Ryan and Tito Jay were about to leave already. I ate the leftover fried rice from breakfast, whipped up a cup of hot chocolate milk, and ate until they left. I consider that brunch already, because it was almost noon. So, I didnt have lunch at noon, I ate at around 4pm already. I didnt do much today, but I managed to do one vector photo - I used Patsy as my subject ;) Then I also finished one sketch, too. But I'm too lazy to upload tonight. So, I think maybe tomorrow, you'll have a glimpse on what I did :D I made butter toast just about 15 minutes before dinner was ready. Which again, delayed my meal. (And I didnt like what we were having.... So I kinda did it on purpose >:P) About 30 minutes after we ate all the butter toast I made, Lola came home. They went to Greenhills, and Shangrila. They had pasalubong! Lol. They got me a cute Theodore chipmunk shirt. :3 They knew I wanted one. :DD They also brought home scrumptious Suman from Tia Paring's. Maaaan. That stuff was gooood. =P~ So, right away, I ate dinner. I had one of those canned Vienna Sausages. After eating, I grabbed one of those sumans right away. :> Same as before, it was good. Reaaaal good :-bd

Hmmm. I'm thinking of putting music to some of my sites, for a less boring experience with my creations. Lol. I'm currently browsing through Streampad.com, since I've seen many people use this.

* Click. Type. Click. Scroll. Click.....

OKAY, I have customized the player. But how on earth am I gonna put the songs?

* Reading. Click. Scroll....

I think I will need to access it through AIM..... There I have an account on AIM already =)) Stupid Streampad. Ughhh. I'm about to give up on this. It takes too long. :|

Anyway. I had a pretty productive day today, and I didnt sleep in. Lol. Yay meeee! Be back later, I guess. I will be working on my sites first. ~

Vector. I wanna learn so bad.

I am a big fan of Adobe. I use Photoshop and Illustrator a lot. Over the summer, I learned Photo Manipulating, adding Text Effects, and making Doodles. But today I tried out something I wanted to for a very long time already, but I didnt have the guts to. Lol. I tried vectorizing my photo :D

<--Here's the original one and here's the vector. -->

I still suck at it though. Look, there's still more to put, they dont look exactly alike yet. But there's still more time. :) And for a beginner, I guess this isnt so bad. :D I made up my To Do list for tomorrow, so I wont be bummed all day :)

• If I am awake by 5am again, I will cook pancakes for breakfast.
• Walk around the house for about 30 minutes to an hour. (Doctor advised me to walk. I need to regain balance, she said. But I cant go out, so Imma do it in the house.)
• Work on my typographies. (REAL typos, not the ones posted on Tumblr by people. I dont even know what gave them the idea that those things were called typographies. Obviously, they dont know art. XDD)
• Practice portrait sketching. (For UP, and for my 365 as well.)
• Practice more vector art on Adobe Illustrator - Focus on the details.

Here. So, my whole day is planned on for art itself, and for my betterment. HAHAHAHA. I'm thinking of doing a black and white vector first, then onto the bright contrasting colored ones. Wish me luck on that, hahaha.

Its May 9th. Second Sunday of the Month. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL MOMMAS!!

Mico must be on his way home now. I think Im gonna let my laptop rest, since Im feeling it overheat again, and that cant be good news. Haha. ~

Hot mess.

Just got home from the doctor's. (About an hour ago.)

Well, we had lunch and rested for a while pa. Because its so damn hot. The heat is so deadly. Even our dogs feel it. They've been howling and barking. They just stopped. Lola gave them water. I think now they're a bit satisfied and refreshed.

Heat stroke could be possible at the moment. You can see the place turning orange in your eyes. :| And you will literally feel the heat burning your skin when you're under the sun.

Anyway, we were at the doctor's today... And guess what. Everything just got screwed up. We lost track of everything now, because the doctor told me the wrong thing the last time we were there. BV. And I thought I was nearing pleasure once again. But I'm not, so you'll probably read tons more of my rants here, as I go on with my boring life being captivated here at home. :| I dont know if its normal to be as disappointed as I am, or maybe I just expected too much. I got too excited about being back on track with how my life was, and now that the doctor said I got much more to wait for, I'm back on being a bum. I hate staying home with nothing to do but go online all the time. When you're an active person, yeah, you'll dream about being home all the time too. But when it happens, trust me. You'll feel stupid for wanting it to happen.

Well, I guess Ima be stuck here for another month. O_O I hope not. I'm finding more productive stuff to do. I'm thinking of working on my sketching again, but I have nowhere to do them, so that's crossed off my list for now. I already sorted out old clothes a week ago, so.. Again, crossed off. What else? I'm bored with photo manipulation and doodling on Illustrator :| Any suggestions?? :| I wanted a productive summer. But so far, nothing productive has been going on. I've been sleeping all the time. Which, I guess is causing my weight gains. :( I wanna lose weight soon. SOOOOOON. Who wants to work out? Haha! AS IFFF. I think if I start working out, about after an hour, I will be dead tired, and will never want to repeat. Lol.

Summer 2010 is just so boring. I have unfinished doodles. (Pen&Paper.) Im not in the mood to continue them. I WANT TO LIE DOWN ON A WATER BED FILLED WITH ICE COLD WATER. Please? :( Im sweating like a pig. I need to take a shower. ~

http://www.amfff.tumblr.com

Lol. My Tumblr site.

My sister just made her own Tumblelog. HAHA. I laughed. She's only 9. She does mostly everything I do. Thats why she created her own Tumblr, I guess. Hahahah.

<-- Yanna's puppy dog.

And now Im customizing her page there. ~

Mojos.

We just finished dinner. We had Shakey's. Pizza and Mojos. :> (I've been craving for Mojos since Mico started working there. :|) But Mico didn't bring 'em. Tito Jay did. So, yeah. I just finished the dishes, and refilling the water containers, and now I'm tired as hell again. I get tired so quick. I hate it.

Anyway, tomorrow's my monthly check up. :| I am hoping for a positive feedback. :) And I am hoping to know about why I am experiencing such troubles these past few weeks. Hope it's not that bad, though. And I hope everything is going well.

And, yeah. Tomorrow will be our Mother's Day bonding. Lol =)) So, we'll be shopping, having a salon spree, and all. Well, after the check up. :D I wish Mico could come tomorrow. I really need him when I face my doctor. Hahaha. But we're also a bit nervous about the check up, since we think the doctor was counting wrong. Well, whatever it is, I want it to be as positive as possible.

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Im sick of all the campaign ads on TV, the banners, posters and streamers posted around, the trucks and vans with very loud speakers playing the political jingles over and over and over, and all the news about politics. Good thing elections are nearing. This Monday, to be exact. Im betting on Noynoy Aquino and Mar Roxas. I like their platforms, though I cant be voting yet. I will be, on the next elections. But for now, just like every year of my life that passed, I will be waiting on who wins and who loses, what issues will come up, and how and if they will be able to do what they promised during campaigns. Im pretty sure Im not the only one tired of corruption. Everything is harder with corruption. Yeah. EVERYTHING. We need leaders who are true. Im just not sure if there are any. When they get their desired positions, they get blinded by the fame and money, and everyone becomes airheads, and forgets the people and their promises, and everything ends up in more global debts, more problems and more corruption.

I sound such an activist. Hahaha. Imma shower up and get resting. Toodles. ~